Hello!!

Hello!! Hello!! Is there anyone out there? :) I am dusting off the cobwebs once again and going back to writing. I have a few good things to say and decided to share with the world. But first let me ask you a question.... What would you like to hear from me? I know what I want to say but if you have a subject, idea or totally cool give away idea let me know. I am open to almost anything.

Back At It

So this is me after my 2 mile run today. I am happily sucking drinking my Nutriemeal/Fruit Smoothie. It was a cool but humid morning today.I have not been running on a regular basis since the winter set in and I completed my first 5K last fall. It felt good and I was not in as bad shape as I thought I would be.

Have you stopped doing something for yourself that made your days more productive? I will be the first to answer yes to that. I had put off my needs to take care of the family and my job. Note I did not say my business but my job. I loved my job but I was missing something for me and allowing it to become a higher priority over family and business.

I was getting cranky and taking to many things to personally. When before I was almost an even keel type of person, I had become the type of person who wanted to cry all the time and my feelings where being hurt to often. I needed to get back to my why of I started my business and working on myself.

It is alright to realize that you slipped back into some old habits. Especially if you get back into making yourself a better person without the guilt. Guilt will hinder you in the long haul. Shake it off and move on. If I can, then anyone can. I have done it many times and each time I come out a stronger person.

To achieve the greatest success, you have to embrace the prospect of failure.

Pauline Estrem - See more at: http://www.success.com/article/why-failure-is-good-for-success#sthash.2ltmD9aW.dpuf

  “I have not failed. I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work.” - Thomas Edison

To achieve the greatest success, you have to embrace the prospect of failure.

Pauline Estrem - See more at: http://www.success.com/article/why-failure-is-good-for-success#sthash.2ltmD9aW.dpuf

    

To achieve the greatest success, you have to embrace the prospect of failure.

Pauline Estrem - See more at: http://www.success.com/article/why-failure-is-good-for-success#sthash.2ltmD9aW.dpuf

Done Something New?

Have you ever said you would never do something? I have and ate those words this weekend. I wore white pants this weekend for the first time in my life. And it was completely freeing! I enjoyed my day without worry of sticky hands or spilling for or liquid on them. I am still in awe of myself for doing it and not stressing out I was going to ruin a pair of pants.

How can a pair of pants be so freeing, you ask. And I answer: It is not the pants, but the resolve to do something without fear of what could happen. I put those pants on this weekend and did not think of the negative possibilities of what I might do or what someone might do. TOTALLY AWESOME!!! 

As I came to realize that I could wear these pants, I wondered why I could not come to the same thought process in my personal and business life. What I do is perfect for me. I am here to please my God and my husband. How I approach business is how I do it, not how someone wants me to. I can be given the tools and coached in words or phrases to say. It still comes down to how I approach and act towards people and situations.

I am here to succeed for my family and myself, not my mentor, boss, friends, or family. Just my family and myself. That is a very liberating thought process.

Please let me know how you can liberate yourself and what are your reasons for it. I would love to hear from you.

Photo courtesy of: http://www.inofashion.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/Maiyet-in-white-pants-and-blazer.jpg

And here I am today.

 

I am down over a 100 pounds and loving life. At the last posting I did not eat a large selection of food and I was still coming to terms with the life changes of my surgery. Well, I have adjusted very well to my new life and body. It is still weird to look in the mirror and see the new me. 

I think I will always be in wonder at how skinny and different I look now. I love it and feel wonderful. It is still just weird. I have run a 5K, bought clothes that are 8 or 10 sizes smaller, gone on longer motorcycle rides, enjoyed life and started a business.

All it took was a boost of courage and the desire to change who I am and how I see myself. I still struggle daily to see the smaller me and not be freaked out that I may go back to the bigger me.

I am taking control of my life and living it the way I was designed to live it. And that means moving to a new state, living out in the country and a much smaller town. I am joyful and very content with where I am but deep down I am desiring so much more than what I have now.

I plan on chronologically my journey to find the more I am desiring. All I know is that we are to look for the most in life and I plan on doing that.

So this here is me about 16 months again.

And the most handsome man in the world, my husband. I was about 240 pounds. Not my highest but I don't think I have any pictures of me then. This is a good reference point of where I started from though. Later I will post a current picture after my 6 month post op.

I am starting to feel better about myself and my eating. Exercise is hard but doable in any form or fashion. I look for anything that gets me moving. I am working in the yard and playing with the kids. That is about it for me.

I am also enjoying more foods. I enjoy things that taste good. I know it was a good idea to start eating the baritiric way before surgery, now it is not so hard. Still trying new things with my family and 90% of the time it is accepted with joy, the other 10% is considered an epic fail.

My emotions are getting under control. I am still talking with someone periodically, and not letting food come to mind when I am stressed. It is not as easy as it sounds, it is still a struggle. But I am not eating 5 or 6 candy bars to calm myself. I found sugar free coffee syrup at the grocery store and make my own lattes now. It has changed how I view the world and the mornings again. It is worth getting up to have that.

I made it through the Christmas Holiday without falling to my temptations, to much. I must admit I have had a cookie and one piece of chocolate. It made the stomach queasy but nothing major, just enough to cause me to never do something like that again. I made lasagna for the fam and a veggie lasagna for me. I am not making that recipe again. It was good, just not to my liking. I tolerated it but it was not tasty to me.

I started counseling last week. It will be good. It is nice to hear from someone who is not only a professional but a been there, doing it kinda person tell me I am not crazy and the adjustment period does not last forever. I was also given the task of thinking up three things that I can do now that I could not do with all the weight on. I have actually come up with about 5 things. They are cross my legs, walk up three flights of stairs, sleep through the night with no snoring, not eat my way through emotions, and play for more than 10 minutes with the boys outside. All of that happened in the last 8 weeks.

I learned about the not eating through emotions last weekend when my grandmother passed away. She was 93 years old and a wonderful lady. I cried and talked to The Man, my husband, and took care of my kiddos.  I also was able to be there with my Daddy and not want to eat through the hard parts. That is huge. I never thought I would be able to accomplish something like that.

I am down a total of 63 pounds since I started this journey. I have a few more to go but I am feeling the benefits emotionally and physically.

Me 1 year ago.